ADHDistic

My Take on Mine (Depression) There is only one way to describe my depression as I look back, it was like I was floating in the deep dark void of the deepest of oceans, which would be the Atlantic. Moving because I was following the flow of the currents which was either too small it was almost unfelt or too strong and the pull and push of the waters made my skin numb and my being non-existential as all the mayhem that occurs around me. I still do not know why I had depression. Was it a sudden collapse due to an catastrophic event that occurred in my life or was it the accumulation of all things that was toxic and my mind had finally collapsed due to it? I started writing this blog as it was time to be honest and true to myself. I cannot keep hiding and suppressing these thoughts and regrets or it will become deeper and more toxic and harmful poison to myself. The damage would most probably bring even more harm than my previous collapse. I may not even survive I keep this up unle...

Lost Youth Once again, it is a lonely night to be spent in Kuala Lumpur. The city of lights and the wake for nightlife adventures and unspeakable activities?   For a city girl, she is terrified of the foreign nightcrawlers. If only she was brave enough to ask out the guys from her Uni who are from the same city as her to go out and roam the city beneath the street lights and sing the laments of her virgin youth, untouched by the rowdy youth that she envies of her friends.   Yet, she also knows there are people who are not able to have that luxury as well, so her youth is not as bad as others then, right? Not everyone can afford that happiness she longs for, but still she yearns for it deeply. Moaning in sorrow of lost youth, quickly passing time that only at those moments can she experience, but now they have slipped through her too fast. She compares herself to other’s lack of. It is to reassure herself that even without them others can still live without much thou...